Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Nicole Marie and Rachel Alexis


My Granddaughters

Nicole Marie and Rachel Alexis are here! They were finally born by c-section at 2:13 this morning. Mary, Joseph and babies are doing wonderful!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Hunter at Grayson Stadium...

Jason Aldean - The Truth



Tell em all I'm on vacation,
Say I went to visit friends,
That you ain't heard or seen from me in quite a while,
When they ask you where I've been,
Tell em I'm out on the west coast where it don't ever rain,
And that I'm probably doing fine,

(Chorus)
Just don't tell em I've gone crazy,
That I'm still strung out over you,
Tell em anything you want to,
Just don't tell em all the truth,
Yeah don't tell em all the truth,

Tell em all I'm out in Vegas,
Blowin' every dollar I ever made,
Tell em that I must be into something bad for me cause,
I sure lost a lot of weight,
Tell em I'm out on the road with some old rock and roll band,
Living like a gypsy can,

(Chorus)

The truth is that I'm asking you to lie,
And we both know that it ain't right,
But if you ever loved me please,
Have some mercy on me,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Tell em anything you want to,
Just don't tell em all the truth,
Yeah don't tell em all the truth,
I still need you,
Yeah that's the truth,
I still love you,

Baby that's the truth.

Kellie Pickler - Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You

Give Me One Reason, Tracy Chapman - Dir. Julie Dash



Give me one reason to stay here and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind
Baby I got your number and I know that you got mine
But you know that I called you I called too many times
You can call me baby you can call me anytime
But you got to call me

Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind

I don't want no one to squeeze me - they might take away my life
I don't want no one to squeeze me - they might take away my life
I just want someone to hold me and rock me through the night

This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
But I'm too old to go chasing you around
Wasting my precious energy

Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind

Baby just give me one reason - Give me just one reason why
Baby just give me one reason - Give me just one reason why I should stay
Because I told you that I loved you
And there ain't no more to say

Harrison on Easter... What a cutie!


Real Love!!!











Saturday, April 24, 2010


"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it."

I shall never forget!!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Early Meeting

This morning's meeting went well...

I accepted and took responsibility for the things I had not accomplished in my business plan, to date. The constructive criticism from my mentor and friend was as usual, very helpful.

We talked a little about my personal life, or lack thereof. I told him about my "blog" and the recent issues I had with it. He reminded me of what a BETTER place I was in now than I was in when he met me 3 years ago. Of course, he doesn't know the whole song and dance, but he knows enough to know how unhealthy I was.

It amazes me what people see from the outside looking in. If only we had the same perception about our own lives, we could free ourselves from so much pain and misery. I have to believe it is all part of the big plan that God has for us. I have walked this path for a reason, one that will be revealed in his time.

I look in the mirror, I see a beautiful person on the inside and out, yet one with so much anger. I shall pray for that anger to be taken away from me every day. I will no longer deny it.

I am a blessed woman with a wonderful life, a fabulous family, amazing career that allows me to help others and impeccable friends. Thank you God.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

- No



No (English translation) Lyrics

No, don't try to apologize
Don't play the game of persistance
Excuses existed before you did

No, don't look at me like before,
Don't talk in plural
Rhetoric is your most lethal weapon

I'm going to ask you to never come back again
I regret that you still can hurt me, here,
Inside

And that at your age you already know well
What it's like to break someone's heart like this

No, one can't live with so much venom
The hope your love gave me
No one else has given me
I swear

No, one can't live with so much venom
One shouldn't devote the soul
To collecting attempts
Rage weighs more than cement

I expect that you don't expect that I expect you
After turning twenty-six
Patience has sunk all the way down to my feet

So here I pluck daisy petals
While I'm looking without seeing
To find out if you'll get irritated and leave
I'm going to ask you not to come back ever again
I regret that you still can hurt me, here,
Inside

And that at your age you already know well
What it's like to break someone's heart
like this

No, one can't live with so much venom
The hope your love gave me
No one else has given me
I swear

No, one can't live with so much venom
One shouldn't devote the soul
To collecting attempts
Rage weighs more than cement

Shakira - Don't Bother



"Don't Bother"

She's got the kind of look that defies gravity
She's the greatest cook
And she's fat free

She's been to private school
And she speaks perfect French
She's got the perfect friends
Oh isn't she cool

She practices Tai Chi
She'd never lose her nerve
She's more than you deserve
She's just far better than me

Hey hey

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

And don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

I'm sure she doesn't know
How to touch you like I would
I beat her at that one good
Don't you think so?

She's almost 6 feet tall
She must think I'm a flea
I'm really a cat you see
And it's not my last life at all

Hey hey

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

Don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

For you, I'd give up all I own
And move to a communist country
If you came with me, of course
And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you
And lose those pounds, and learn about football
If it made you stay, but you won't, but you won't

So don't bother,
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry

So don't bother,
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type, not your type, not your type, not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

My Gibson...

Eva Cassidy - Songbird


To My Wonderful Husband... I Miss You EVERYDAY!!!



For you there'll be no crying
For you the sun will be shining
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before



To you, I would give the world
To you, I'd never be cold
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

Like never before; like never before.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Pink - Crystal Ball



Crystal Ball lyrics
Songwriters: Mann, Billy; Moore, Alecia B;
Drinking wine and thinking bliss is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head are skidding up and down again
Up and down and 'round again, down and up and 'round again

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all
Just to end up right back here on the floor
To end up right back here on the floor

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all
The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring
Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace
And I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes

Oh, I've felt that fire and I, I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all
Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love
What it does to me? What it's done to me? What is done, done?

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Broken mirrors and a black cat's cold stare
Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there
But I'm not scared at all, I'm not scared at all
'Bout the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

P!nk - I Don't Believe You



"I Don't Believe You"

I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set and I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight, the times I've cried, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?

[Chorus:]
No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No, I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend
To not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up
Looks like you've given up, you've had enough
But I want more no I won't stop
'cause I just know you'll come around... right?

[Chorus]

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
'cause I, 'cause I still don't mind at all
It's like the way we fight, the times I cry, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?

[Chorus]

*** THE PASSION IS THERE SO IT'S GOT TO BE RIGHT!

You have said it before, you have never met anyone as passionate as we are together. How can you let it go? I Don't Believe You! I will always love you...


Posted by Paula
Another restless night, my mind filled with dreams.

Today shall be a better day; I shall trust that. My friends just don't understand why I live with such torment of the past.

Monday, April 19, 2010

There is one place I will always find abundant love, Kristen and Hunter. Amazing children. God has blessed me!

When I Look At You!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wxOVn99FTE
When I Look At You lyrics

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
Beautiful melody, when the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy (Yeah)
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)

When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful (Yeah, Yeah)

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

The Voice of Knowledge

God, help me love myself unconditionally so that I can share my love with other humans, with all forms of life on this beautiful planet. Help me to create my own dream of heaven, to the eternal happiness of humanity, Amen".
** Written by Don Miguel Ruiz, Author of The Voice of Knowledge

Thursday, April 15, 2010


Last Night:( Song says it all!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ctfNh0j9OI
Need You Now Lady Antebellum
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cuz I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.I just need you now.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stopping looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.I just need you now.
Oh whoaYes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunkand I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you nowI just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Friday, April 2, 2010

"Heartbreaker" by Pink

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7onMYUcdL04

I keep thinkin' bout that little sparkle in your eye
Is it a light from the angels, or your devil deep inside?
What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin' me up to heaven, just to drop me down the line?
There's a ring around my finger,But will you change your mind?
And you tell me that I'm beautiful,But that could be a lie
Are you a heartbreaker?Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I won't be leavin' here alive, noTemporary happiness is like waiting for the knife
Cause I'm always watchin' for someone to show their darker side
So maybe I'll sit back and just enjoy all this for now
Watch it all play out, see if you really stick aroundBut there's always this one question
That keeps me up at nightAre you my greatest loveOr disappointment in my life?
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die
I'm holding on with both hands and both feet, oh
Promise that you won't pull the rug out from under me
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
I pray to god you're not a heartbreaker
This time around I won't survive
Cause if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die, oh
I won't be leavin' here alive